I wish this spinning would stop.....

I dont know why but my head keeps spinning. Ever since I took my shower and then put lotion on. I think this lotion is not very good for me or something. Usually I dont like to put lotion on, because it gets greesy, but I do after my showers. But for some reason this stuff just doesnt agree with me. I dont know. I havnt been feeling right the past coupple days now. I feel tierd, and I dont want to do anything. I feel like no matter what I do it'll still be wrong, so why bother? Jake is suposed to come sometime but nothing is certain now. I dont know what to think. He keeps saying that he'll get here. I wish that I could figure it out. I'm feeling really tierdly random. I want to write but I dont want to write. I dont know what to do. Maybe I'll go take another shower.

Ramblings

I really havnt rambled in awhile and its all starting to build up so I decided while waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in.

Well, first and formost, Jake and I are back together. I'm pretty happy about that. We had been apart since February 15th and he finally made up his mind that he loves me and wants to see if we can really work. A big DUH but men are slow like that. Like i always told him, just make your head listen to what your heart already knows. Now we're planning on moving in with eachother this summer to see if we can live togehter without killing eachother. The only thing to do now is count down the days and scramble to find the money and things we'll need before the end of may. I'm doing my best but we'll see what happens.

School is being stupid. I'm not graduating this year, which i already know. But now SS is telling me that i HAVE to graduate from this school in order to continue recieving benifits which makes no sence because once i graduate i'll not be recieving any benifits anyway. They're a load of shit. I dont know what else to do though, I mean if i dont get the benifits grandma cant make ends meet i mean she already cant make end meet so they're just being stupid. *sigh*

I kinda put crochet on a sort of mini break so that i cant work on school work, the few things that i'm behind in. But i do have my own blog about it now so thats a benifit. I'm trying to find another job or some way to sell something to make money because i'm damn poor.

Well i can feel the drowsiness coming on now. So i'll write more tomorrow.