Help....

I dont want to go to sleep. I dont want to go to sleep. I've been having the worst nightmares, and not even about Terry. I dont want to go to sleep. I feel like no matter what I do its wrong. I dotn want to go to sleep. I dont want to take my pills because then I'll have to go to sleep. I dont want to. I feel like shit. Everythings out to get me. Today was crappy. I dont want to go to sleep. I dont know what to do. I cant deal with Jake doubting again. I've been doing everything I can. I didnt even get to talk to him like I wanted. I got upset and he hung up. Everything's shot all to hell. No matter what I do its wrong. Goddess, please save me.