There was another threat on my life today. Mike tried to kill me because I wouldnt mow the lawn. *sigh* Now he's threatening to kill himself over grandma not making him a sandwich. What am I suposed to do? Maybe I should just let him. There is nothing in this world left for me. Nothing.

To make matters worse he told me that Jake hates me. Doesnt want to have anything to do with me. Used me as a fuck buddy until he could find another piece of ass. That hurts....No matter how much I dont want to believe it, the words still hurt. I want to die.